Lil Bit

This is to my Lil' Bit
Apart of me you still have a little bit
Can't no woman touch, it can't be fiddled with
Sometimes in my dreams I can see your silhouette
I race to embrace, then wake up with my pillow wet
I can feel your head, laying in my chest
Wish it wasn't from memory; I'm praying for your best
The time we had was short, but moments last forever
So in those late nights and early mornings we will live forever
Why couldn't we weather, those stupid things that never
really can protect you from life's weather?
Can't hold you like coat or shield you like an umbrella
Selfish motives broke our ties, they the knives that severed
Us from us, I was s without u
Susceptible to it all, I was less without you
I guess I was too hardheaded
Ganja being more important than me, I couldn't accept it
In you I loaned so much interest, I didn't want to let it
Go uncollected-I am unapologetic
For wanting the best for you, I know your potential
If you made it kinetic, your future is exponential
I remember the first time I met you, so eventful
Beautiful without the makeup, face full of pimples
Hello Kitty kitten with a throwed off mental
Hardheaded and rock-hearted from all the bull she been through
While I wished things would have worked between us
If you didn't want to work it wouldn't have worked between us
I'm not happy that in our novel, we only lived the preface
But i am elated to know that we even existed
I know that the story is waiting for us to script it
Pages into chapters, Chapters in to books
Volumes of us rising to the bottom of God's foot
So this little bit, goes out to my Lil' Bit
Big thing in a small package, way more than a little bit...
to me....

Jack of All Trades...Master of None
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Mandi Cortinas Music

Should've came back for you ,
I thought I had the time, to do what I had to do
Caught in the high school life, I didn't wanna let you go
I knew it wasn't right... Why did I let you go
Hoping you will forgive me, never meant wrong,
Prayed you were patient, waited to long,
But I shouldve came back, but I shouldve came back for you
Shouldve came back, shouldve came back-Shouldve came

With that fake Jacob watch I swore I had enough time
But by the time my wrist turned green, you had enough Ryan
You had enough pain, you had enough crying
You had too much playing, you had to much lying
I was all gas, hell I was trying to clutch Ryan
I was just trying to live, i didn't know I'd rush dying
First to teach me what love is
I didn't want people to see me in public
Kissing and hugging on a girl who wasn't
Cuz to them they was, and I was just becoming
I was so stupid, I guess that how youth is
Rather than pay for half carat diamond, we cop a really big cubic
We were a great harmony, we were choir students
When we kissed it was like perfectly arranged music
The notes were all harped and the beat was all fluted
Why did i let other peoples thoughts pollute it?
My thoughts and their thoughts became cahooted and convoluted
It concluded..and you felt looted
Never could imagine I'd hurt, never dreamt I could do it
Mind full of dirt, so live a vag I tried to douche it
But when you clean out everything, its more susceptible to disease
That's why women stay in my life, like peace in the middle east
Why real love didn't I seize?
I went left at whats right; Why did I let love leave?
Why to my fears did I cede and let us cease
I messed up more that my knee, my four years at Mesquite
All them late nights in ya car at City Lake Park, seem so far
Love shouldn't be hard
Love shouldn't be war
It's funny when things that couldn't be, are
That shouldn't be, are
That wouldn't be , are
When i could have came back, I should have came back
If I realized what I lost I would have came back for you...

Should've came back for you ,
I thought I had the time, to do what I had to do
Caught in the high school life, I didn't wanna let you go
I knew it wasn't right... Why did I let you go
Hoping you will forgive me, never meant wrong,
Prayed you were patient, waited to long,
But I shouldve came back, but I shouldve came back for you
Shouldve came back, shouldve came back-Shouldve came


The one that I omit
The one I cant forget
Like the last shot MJ too kin the 14s to get 6
Now I'm Two Three, looking at the new me
Knowing it's more than money and mamis why I'm in Miami
I'm looking for the win, I'm looking for the ship
Grabbing for that last crumb in the bag of the chips
Looking for things I never lost
Missing things that I never caught
I'm forever off, and I can only blame myself
Baby girl a picture of you still stands on my shelf
It's behind a few things, but I know it's right there watching
You right there watching, I still cant believe what happened
Why did I leave you madam?
I sit alone crying at your picture asking all these questions
Knowing i need to be yelling at the mirror, charging up my reflection
How I saw myself, let to my insecurities
All the ambiguity, animosity, and buffoonery
This is my sincere apology for all the loonery
I made you look stupid, but made my self Blue Clueless
Can't solve the mystery, of the missing me
Don't need CSI to look for the cum
The crook has my DNA, Fingerprints, and motivation
know that I pray for you, know that I care
And the reason I don't call, its cuz I'm embarrassed about all those years
i treated you wrong, and took you for granted,
When you thought I was the world; Girl that's why you still standing
And with my pain all these young girls I'm hazing and branding
They don't even cross, they renegade
Just bringing women in the shade
Now matter how many lemons in lemonade-It's still bitter
I'm still bitter, no richer, never be wealthy
Till i do this I'll never be healthy
Let the record state you my first everything
And you are truly an angel that deserves every wing
Keep soaring...


Should've came back for you ,
I thought I had the time, to do what I had to do
Caught in the high school life, I didn't wanna let you go
I knew it wasn't right... Why did I let you go
Hoping you will forgive me, never meant wrong,
Prayed you were patient, waited to long,
But I shouldve came back, but I shouldve came back for you
Shouldve came back, shouldve came back-Shouldve came


Jack of All Trades...Master of None
TRPastiche
@TRPhipps
TRPoetry


Inspired by

Hello Ms...Today

As the waiter hurries us to our table with warm salutations,
I am aloof towards the elegance of the evening.
Not glance to the posh decor, extravagant ornamentation or opulent aura;

She on the other hand is brimming with glee...
She never thought that dance would lead to this,
This wondrous restaurant with people she could have never met
and food should would not ever try;
But I did...

I grab her chair, seat her, and slid her in
Scanning the room to peer at my family.
You see while this is new to her, it is home to me.
This is the driveway, which leads right to my one room house.
At least there is only one room she will see.

She gets nervous to order food with no prices,
And I reassure her to get what she wants.
As we sip wine, I awestruck her with words and experiences experienced,
But mostly vicarious
She is taken aback by every syllable;
I am drawing forward with every smile.
And by the time the check comes, she is already gone.

As we walk up to my bedroom, I am already thinking about Ms. Tomorrow.
Ms. Right Now is already Ms. Yesterday, and I like to live in the future
So right before I set down my phone to take her up, I send a text saying,
"Hello Ms....Today"


JOATMON
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Midnight Breeze

It's funny how that the only constant is change
Yet no matter how wounded, you remain
In my veins coursing, in my stomach digesting
On my bones engulfing, in my mind infecting
She came, she came, she came, and she came
She left, she left, she left, and she left...I was a just bishop in the game

I thought that what was...was
But it is, and still is when we met eyes
Face so familiar, but the time has waned
Feelings so familiar, but oh so not the same
The woman I want, and wanted is gone
And you are the shell, the droid, the pawn
But as I walked away, stirred yet eased

Your memory, your name covered when the midnight breezed
...and off it blew...
...and with it...
I flee...


JOATMON
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Dirty

I'm bathing in my tears
Wallowing in your fears
Using others as soap
But the pains still here
I wish it was a shower, but the pain don't drain
Just sulkin and soakin the pain still reigns

You were supposed to be the first one
Second chance @ wedding bands, ended up being the worst one
I was trying to make it work, but it wasn't working
I was blinded by the potential life
In the daze of the haze of you being my potential wife
You had an exponential light and I wanted to see where it shun
Ma of you I was in awe, but just like staring at the sun
Ya aura burnt my coronas
Ya lies Miss scorched my iris
Never again will you return to my retinas
Bring it back Mr. DJ of the relationship records
But when you scratched too much the 45 is damaged
That's why I'm sittin here-sittin here-sittin here stranded

I'm bathing in my tears
Wallowing in your fears
Using others as soap
But the pains still here
I wish it was a shower, but the pain don't drain
Just sulkin and soakin the pain still reigns

Damn! When you broke the dam
All hell broke loose, it was supposed to be damned
I think her name was Tam, naw maybe it was Pam
Man either way I had -am crammed all up in the lam
Living life in nights, I don't even know A.M.
Living life in satellite, no FM, or AM
I don't even know who I am, so i look through photos in a cam
with blurry definition, funny I remember it no different
Living life in the instance, it ends in an instant
Others deep woods huntin, I'm deep sea fishin
Reelin in holy mackerels, penetrating vaginals
In this sport I'm a shark, a whale of an asshole
Set sail with my back to, my past my mast to
A thick chick with ass and a star trail tattoo

I'm bathing in my tears
Wallowing in your fears
Using others as soap
But the pains still here
I wish it was a shower, but the pain don't drain
Just sulkin and soakin the pain still reigns

You stay poppin up in my mind's news ticker
I always see your updates and your new pictures
I cringe everytime I see you dat nigga
....Cuz i was supposed to be dat nigga...
But since he dat nigga
Fuckin all the other hoes, I be Dat nigga
Funny thing is I don't even see that nigga
All i see is weed, dat liqour, these hoes
Like the waterfall video before she goes
In the mirror, not thinkin about if I'm infected
But "Who is this man?" and "Where have I defected?"
Where is my pulse? Why can't I detect it?
If I'm deceased? Can I be resurrected?
Can i be restored? can i be re-corrected?
Can i be revived? Can I be redeemed?
Can we be reteamed, can it be re-dreamed


I'm bathing in my tears
Wallowing in your fears
Using others as soap
But the pains still here
I wish it was a shower, but the pain don't drain
Just sulkin and soakin the pain still reigns

Angels Remix

I got tired of pleading
Ain't no angels for demons
So I hopped in the all white diablo speeding
Side chick @ the side, the daughter of a deacon
I call her on the weekends
To break her collar and make her knees bend...

So baby holler when the week ends
She know what is, what it was, what it will be
I do her so dirty, but I don't feel filthy
I'm the bailiff Why should I feel guilty?
I'm not accused or convicted
I just take'em to where they headed
Once the judging is committed

I'm a role player, an old player
Doing what I do till its time to go later
I don't remember the Alpha, but I'ma see the Omega
Sigma, the sum of it all
We all know a rise comes with a fall
but sometimes I don't think the skies are coming @ all
My heavens between women's thighs and their comings the call

Haloess and wingless
I left mars, skipped earth and now I'm stranded on Venus
It's hotter closer to the sun
But I'll do what I need to feel closer to the son
So I strap on my jet pack
I got a new chick jet black
Ass like a mule, tight abs, with a wet cat
She think I'm Mr. Right
I don't even see a Misses
I do my dirt with God as a witness
I'll fuck an angel till he listens


Inspired by Dirty Money - Angels

JACK OF ALL TRADES...MASTER OF NONE
TRPASTICHE
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Drunken Luv

I've overfilled my life with too many broads
Too many bras
Three many tois

Came along way from a one woman man
I've got way to many issues that one woman can
Handel, so I distribute them like x's
But now I got more functions than guns in Texas

I told my self I would settle down
But I just got started how can I settle now
I let him leave if they wanna
Give him a hug goodbye and let em precede to they honda

They'll get over, shit I had too
I was real fucked up, I was sad too
I couldn't believe she wasn't coming back
I still aint leave, she coming back

So as I wait, my late date
I guzzle down these girls hearts and use they dreams as a chase

Bartender another round!

TRPASTICHE
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